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I worked on a watercolor tutorial video very recently and I put my heart in it.. it's not about painting specific pictures, but about transferring knowledge you can use for your own work :) 

but the problem is what thumbnail to pick x'D 

Thmbs by Laovaan

I feel like the second one matches well, because its very neutral.... but it's without personality as well x_X  I feel it would dissappear in the giant youtube jungle.... thats why i picked the first one but I am still not 100% sure...

Anyway here you can watch it!

maybe I will update the thumbnail the next days..let's see :'D

What do you think?

Also, if you have any wishes for upcoming vids, please tell me x) 
Not just recently but in all these years where i uploaded drawings online, people tend to think that I am a girl.udging by my work xD
I already accepted that, because I know even tho I am rarely drawing explicit content I have some yaoi/bishonen aesthetics in my style, which is often proclaimed to be
something from and for a female community.
Definitionwise my work would be bara though, since neither am I a woman, nor do I only want to appeal to woman...

The term bara often contrasts with yaoi, which is gay male media usually made by heterosexual women to appeal to other heterosexual women. Whereas bara typically emphasizes masculine homoeroticism and frank explicit sexual situations, yaoi typically emphasizes the androgynous bishonen aesthetic and depicts emotional romantic relationships.
Nevertheless, if you would ask me, I would rate my work more yaoi because bara has a certain code and accents that my work won't deliver.
But it gets weirder. I always thought people assumed that because they know my manga work, but no xD there were a lot of people just knowing my realistic portraits and I wondered how do people come to these conclusions...
I often catch myself assuming the gender of artists, but actually often jsut end up to think most artists are female just by experience, since around 90% of art students at my Uni are girls as well as artists on german conventions.

So is it really style or just common to think most artists are girls?
Do you know more male or female artists/ does it matter to you in a way?
It certainly has an effect though....
I often find it strange to take the artists gender and to deduce the audience. the definition of BoysLove/Yaoi always bugs me a bit: that people say yaoi was only/mainly created by girls for girls....
like sometimes I think if people see my work, they might assume that I am a girl and thus feeling excluded because then "it apparently was created for girls" just because of stupid definitions
I also guess that not all female bishonen artists etc. only draw for a female audience

But enough of my thoughts, just had to get it out of my head, and since it's been a while, why not write a deviantart journal xD
Sorry for all the typos :'D

Gamescom is over

Journal Entry: Fri Aug 26, 2016, 3:09 AM
well it's over now since a few days already xD 
but hell it felt like a full time and it actually was kind of like it..I mean :iconecholox: and I were sitting there about 12 hours a day :D
anyway it feels good to be home again and having met so many awesome people >u< I am so thankful for everyone who visit me and all the nice coversations OvO
Currently I am working on new videos and also doing yome uni stuff that piled up :'D 
Also I will anounce another  livestream soon, so follow me on twitch if you are interested *v*ô

Does Your Art Have A Message?

Journal Entry: Fri Jun 17, 2016, 6:31 AM
Studying art made me wonder a lot about the message of my pictures already... I want to be an artist who just does what he likes, without necessarily putting a statement in every work, but  as a member of the lgbt community I sometimes feel the need to incorporate it as well.
Orlando made my thoughts clear about that again.
But it is hard to thematize lgbt appropriatly, which just makes me want to put a rainbow on all of my work, just to make people realise they are enjoying "gay" art.
It is really difficult, because I don't want to be that "in your face" and also I don't want my work to be downscaled on that fact, but sometimes I am just afraid that if you are not constantly outspoken about it people just won't accept it as a normal part of existing.
Being "in your face" is still necessary, I guess.
Not on deviantart that is and I am glad about that x)
But to be honest I am still afraid to kiss my bf in public, but at some point you can only make people get used to it, by making it everyday.

Those are just my  thoughts, and I am still not sure if I am brave or consistent enough to incorporate them...Llama Emoji-37 (Teehee) [V2] 

What are your thoughts? Are you communicating a higher/hidden meaning through your art,or have you thought about it?

My Personal Style

Journal Entry: Thu Mar 24, 2016, 9:13 AM
Since i got asked on Youtube what style my "personal style" was, so i gave it a thought.
The question was asked because I cite quite obvious other artists styles sometimes, but also because I switch from manga to more realistic art.

Style is a tool you can use to give your picture another layer of meaning in my opinion. So if you recognize somebodys style 
in some of my work you can count on it I did it with an intention - other than other artists who like to stick with one style to express themself, I want to be able to change it when i feel the need to. It is something to think about in my work. Also I don't want every picture to look the same and execute a scheme/pattern. On the other hand every picture I do has my personal note, too. So my personal style is in everything I make, even in the recreations of existing pieces like in the "Digital Art in Watercolor" Series, since I put a lot of thought in it  
I do cosplay, realistic paintings, semi-realistic and manga art with digital media and all kind of traditional media, so my personal style is to do what I like to do and having fun, I guess.

i hope some people can relate to what I said  Llama Emoji-37 (Teehee) [V2] 

(I would not be able to study art btw. if I would only insist on one style Llama Emoji-65 (Blood Tears...) [V3] )

this, that and the other

Journal Entry: Thu Feb 4, 2016, 1:42 AM
It's been a while... wow I really wanted to update my journal more frequently, but time just flies by  xD
Anyway Uni is really demanding at the moment although I propably can't do everything that I ought to do :'D.
It's just because I really want to work on my art and on videos fo Youtube, too QwQ
That might sound pretty childish somehow, but I think I want use the time as long as I can with something that actually makes fun and is in a way more rewarding than writing 10-13 pages about  education and learning x'D 
Of course I'll try my best to do both! (But the next semester doesn't seem to look very artfriendly  either x'D)
I also want to draw more adult stuff Llama Emoji-01 (Laughing) [V1]   Although I am a little worried because in the end i will become a teacher and propably future pupils will know how to google...Llama Emoji-56 (Hiding) [V3] 

i can't be the only one?

Journal Entry: Sun Oct 11, 2015, 8:30 AM
Youtube is pretty known for mean and rash comments under the videos i think. And the last weeks i really noticed  the  difference of receiving feedback there compared to the other platforms i am using. Of course there is a lot of love,and nice people too but when there are rash comments they are on another level if you know what i mean Llama-Emoji-12 (Left and Right) [V1] .
I don't want to drop names or something, but sometimes i really wish i could express how i feel about the stupidity and disrespect some people treat me with.Llama Emoji-66 (Orly) [V3] 
Anyway,i wanted to ask if some of you have some comment gold you received / experienced and want to share with me. May they be rash, funny or stupid comments not only on youtube  xD

Questions and Answers Part II

Journal Entry: Fri Aug 14, 2015, 10:10 AM
Well here is another Part of the Q & A i had with :iconecholox:
It is from the same session as the other one, so the questions some of you asked the last time are for the next videos as well as the ones you can ask in the commentsection right now :3

also i have a question myself to you: what art i make do you like the most?
is it the cosplay, or the classic manga, or the realistic watercolor portraits or the the semirealistic work :3 
i will do a poll on this topic later i think x3
anyway, have fun with the video, and as i said if you have question not mentioned in the viedeos before, feel free to ask them x3

DeviantArtist Questionnaire

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 10, 2015, 7:30 AM
  1. How long have you been on DeviantArt? With the account laovaan since 2 january 2009, so 6 years now :) but i have been around a bit longer, i think at least  since 2007. i used the account of my brother, but just to browse :D

  2. What does your username mean? It means nothing in particular. The first part "Lao" i found was the name of a character by a book my mother had. And Vaan is the name of a final fantasy character,which i haveen't played yet,but i liked the sound :'D 

  3. Describe yourself in three words. I am Lorde (ya ya ya)

  4. Are you left or right handed? rrrright

  5. What was your first deviation?  Turn The Sky by Laovaan this one ist not the first one on my account, but the one i really made by the time i made the account. 

  6. What is your favourite type of art to create? i have lik no special favourite :) i like digital painting and traditional drawing as well xD cosplay and photography,too.

  7. If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be? i would like to learn mor about painting digital concept art. I guess there is much to make your life easy with it, but i just don't know everything about photoshop yet :'D

  8. What was your first favourite? i think every Kingdom Hearts fanart by :iconeguana: :) Halloween by eguana she is an amazing artist and propably the reason i was drawn to deviantart xD

  9. What type of art do you tend to favourite the most? i think fanarts..but i dont really now. But what i know is that i am pretty picky so if i favourite sth. i really mean it xD

  10. Who is your all-time favourite deviant artist?  :iconecholox: :iconprodigybombay: :icongoku-no-baka: :iconsakimichan: :iconeguana: :iconvalentina-remenar: :iconsirwendigo: :iconz-pico: :iconyaichino: :iconkanapy-art: :iconxmenoux: :iconsaitoru: :iconchokohara:

  11. If you could meet anyone on DeviantArt in person, who would it be? i would love to meet :icononisuu: some day :D and :iconyamato-leaphere: cos tht would mean i would be in italy some day either *__*

  12. How has a fellow deviant impacted your life? I think :iconecholox: impacted my life the most since we are together since 2011 <3 also he made me be more active on my account because there was a long time i had not used it :'D of course :iconjasdavi: because he is my brother and without him i would propably never have made an own acount in the first place. On an art level i think you can tell by my work who impacted me i think. For example :iconagnes-cecile: and :iconsakimichan: but also :iconlikovacs: :iconnuriko-kun: and a lot more x)

  13. What are your preferred tools to create art? it changes ,but i think watercolor will be always a tool i choose :D 

  14. What is the most inspirational place for you to create art? My bed xD

  15. What is your favourite DeviantArt memory? i know it really sounds like nothing, but in my early beginning i uploaded this one  Potter by Laovaan and at first i was a bit not sure what was to think about it, but some time later one of the fe who had it as favourite was :iconviria13: and i was super happy and i remember it untill today :D Also the collabs i made with :icononisuu: are very nice memories x)

Questions and Answers

Journal Entry: Wed Jul 29, 2015, 2:29 PM
First Thank you all very much for your amazing tips for good character design ;u; a lot are very helpful QwQ I worked on a few designs and hope I can show them you soon :3  
but more important,since you gave me such nice answers I thought I will give you some,too ;D 
so :iconecholox: and I recorded a Q&A

so please have a look :3 

Good Characterdesign?

Journal Entry: Fri Jul 24, 2015, 2:53 AM
wow, its been a while since the last journal update Llama Emoji-21 (Speechless) [V1] 
and i just wanted to all of you expressing you opinion on that digital/traditional thing Llama Emoji-02 (Blush) [V1]  so thank you >u<
Lately i am working on a shortstory and the basic plot is done..but i have extreme difficulities when it comes to dialogues. I think it might be connected with the fact that my characters are not really well thought out yet. 
But honestly i can't really tell what a well thought character looks like....when i think about characters like sora of kingdom hearts  i would say i really like it, but i guess i think so just because i am used to it and it reminds me of my childhood :'D
same goes with Allen of D.Gray-man.
I could not really say those characters are super authentic, because the problems they are dealing with are a bit far outside of my everyday life, so i just accept the way they are acting xD
anyway, this might even not be the important part of a good character...but what is?

and this is why i wanted to ask the ones of you, who are experienced with OCs: how do you come up with your characters? have you put deep toughts in the design and what is a good character design for you?
and most important question : how can i manage to write a dialogue in the view of a different person? 

thank you for reading Llama Emoji-03 (Sparkles) [V1] 

digital or traditional?

Journal Entry: Tue May 19, 2015, 3:45 PM
Hurray this weekend i will be a dokomi in Düsseldorf, Germany Llama Emoji-02 (Blush) [V1] I'm super excited (as always when it's convention season here Llama Emoji-58 (Up and Down) [V3] )
but also i'm busy with the preparations Llama Emoji-17 (Sweating) [V1] so much to do, since i'm part of the artist alley there. Anyway, if anyone comes there too, feel free to visit me Llama Emoji-11 (Come Here) [V1] 
I hope i will be able to post more and new pictures. after the con  >w<
but as i said earlier, i have a question for you:
Do you like my tradtional work more than my digital ? and would you like to see more WIPs Llama Emoji-23 (Shyness) [V1] 
i'm super slowly when it comes to digital work, although it gets better x'D but i'm not that sure of uploading digital WIPs here...with tradtional works i have not this problem somehow , at least i dont feel that uncomfortable with it xD

About references and stuff

Journal Entry: Mon Mar 2, 2015, 2:28 PM
For me the last time I thought about this topic is some time ago, but since  i haven't written anything about it, it might be the right time now x)

I think when I start talking about references and such things, I have to go back where I encountered stress because of people arguing about it.
My opinion on using references before wasn't really developed.
I just thought "Yeah, I like that, I wanna draw like him or her" and analyzed the works I have admired to use the things I found make the picture.

So in my progress of working on my skills I started with copying Naruto and Kingdom Hearts pictures as well as people from photos (because I liked that as well). But when I started copying manga pieces I noticed there was a big difference in the way people approach your work.

Photos are ok, manga is not. 

Anyway, I started to get better and I didn't really need to copy something as a whole to get a good picture but took parts like an eye or something and made my own picture out of that.

Nevertheless, the community where I uploaded my stuff reacted like they have been betrayed when they noticed a reference or something.
And since then it got a bad taste... not in the case that I thought using it was bad, but openly showing it was bad. Like people think you are a bad artist when they know you referenced pictures. 

My attitude today is a bit different. Of course I know people think worse about your work when they know you use references (when I think about that stuff that happened to kronprinz). That's why I believe it's even harder to admit it in the first place.

But to be honest, these people can think what they want, they don't matter. It's your work and your abilities that matters. And in my case they just got better everytime I watched the work of the artists I admire closely.
I learned not to give shit about people thinking you have no skill if you use references, even if it's hard sometimes and comments can hurt pretty much.

An Example:

Link Hyrule Warriors - Drawing by Laovaan and   Painting Liui Aquino as Hiccup - Scan by Laovaan

These pictures aren't even my own ideas, I copied them from pictures I found on the internet. Technically speaking those pictures are the result of the practice I had when I copied manga pages in my early days :D Nevertheless I put thought into it since I thought those pictures are worth to be drawn.
And people didn't even mention it as a bad thing that I "just" copied something or want to tell me that I should work on my own style...which was often the case when I referenced pictures by :iconsakimichan: lol
Propably what makes most people angry about references especially with manga-style art is because they did not expect it, when it was not mentioned in the comments, and feel betrayed for whatever reason, 
Personally I understand not linking the reference every time, especially when it's pretty obvious, but also when it's not, simply because of the mentioned reasons. The best trick for those people to not feel betrayed is propably always assuming that a work was done with reference in the first place...

Back to the topic. In the case of the painting of :iconliuiaquino: it's even a reference within a reference, since he had Hiccup of How To Train Your Dragon 2 in mind. 
This leads to the next point where I think you should not think of using references as a bad thing:
In making cosplay it is vice versa. If you can't recognize the character which was the base of the costume you won't get recognized.
But I've never seen anyone comment like "Hun, you just copied a work by Takeshi Obata" or something.
I know there is a difference between those...genres? Because you do photos shootings and such. But for me doing both, drawing and sewing cosplays, it feels much alike.

If you work with references, you still need some skills to get a decent piece. And the best thing is, you gain skills when you work with references. At least that is what i experienced. 

Thank you for reading if you made it to the end Llama Emoji-03 (Sparkles) [V1] 

Style Struggle

Journal Entry: Sat Nov 29, 2014, 2:17 AM
recently i have some issues with what i like the most in drawing. When i found Katsura Hoshinos (artist of D.Gray-Man) Instagram i started following her,lucky to see, that she was still active.
Looking at her beautiful work it became highly motivated to work on classical manga-like pictures, u know what i mean right xD?.
But days later on dA frontpage there was it again, an artwork of sakimichan Llama Emoji-66 (Orly) [V3] .
to me, both styles have something i really wanna master. Katsura Hoshino for telling storys,and sakimichans for doing good digital artwork.
But wanting to learn both,i'm afraid of unlearnig one thing while practicing the other.
Since i worked digitally the last weeks, i tried to do something with lineart,and it felt a bit more difficult...maybe i just surmised it, since i'm convinced that practicing in every way is good for everything xD
any how, i wondered if you were ever faced with wanting to learn some style,that is completely different from you usual work Llama Emoji-37 (Teehee) [V2] ?

oh i have a new Watercolor video
edited by :iconecholox: Llama Emoji-02 (Blush) [V1] 

about planning a story

Journal Entry: Sun Jul 20, 2014, 8:40 AM
finally i have got holidays x3 and since i want to use the free time i am now about to plan a story to make my first doujinshi *_* but i always end in thinking too  much about the direction i want to go. i want to do something authentic, but on the other hand it will be my first story so maybe i have set a too high standard to begin with, because it can be really bounding...but its also my goal and what i want to work with.
to be more clear i am working on a BL story with more like genuine content, that may help people to be more confident about themselves :) 
Naahh do you guys have any tips for writing a story without stopping any minute and thinking about the sense of your work x'D?

Oh yes, in case you didnt know, i have ot a facebook page :3 
its called kite, because this was my first nickname like ever :D
im sorry i often post there ingerman langauge, too :')
ill try to be more bilingual i future :)

As some of you people may know i study german and art in germany, in dortmund to be more concrete.
and today  happend to be a day where i could present my stuff. im not sure if people form different countries a familiar with that problem, but in germany manga is very unpopular in university if you study art :/
but i managed to show my manga related work in advance, so i knew its not the favourite stuff my prof sees but i wont be laughed at or something.
i wasnt really sure anyway,because i had in mind that maybe there waas a chance that i could participate to get my work presented in a museum along the work of other students.
Well ,before i showed my stuff i spoke with an elder student, who already had the bachelor.
it was really ...i dont know,like depressing. i argued with her,that i can guess that manga-related art has never been shown in the echibition i wanted to participate,so that might something new for everyone,but she replied that the teachers at university woldnt be like ready for sth. like this, in china i'd have propably more luck.
after all i showed it to my prof,and she was pretty open minded,but i still have no good feeling about my chances being part of the exhibition.....

about my art, she saw no problem  i wanted to solve/work at..
thats an  interesting point i think,but having fun to work on the stuff one likes should be an acceptable reason to so art, too i think xD
but anyway, i know that university is not the audience i have in mind when i work, but it would be nice if manga-related work would be more appreciated there by profs. i mean,some dirt stains is accepted as art,so what is the issue with "pretty" things? 
 i really wonder if there are counrtries where its equally accepted OuO
in one week is the animagic (german con) and  i'm looking forward to it *__*  im going to cosplay link and noel on sun and saturday but not sure on which day :D but because of this i'm making new pockets for the link cosplay :D i even have  a new wig (its the same ,but  new x)
i'm hoping for a lot of good photos ;A; especially of noel, but id love to have some dramatic shots of link either ;w; 

First Journal Entry

Fri Apr 12, 2013, 1:59 PM by Laovaan:iconlaovaan:
first tries in programming lol